Hari Kamu Jadi

Today is my friend Bella's birthday. I am sorry if I can't call him and wish him because I'm in Thailand and it's really expensive. He'll understand. I guess I should write some nice things on here. Somehow I find it hard, and I keep backspacing. Maybe cause there's to many nice things to write!Bella's always really nice to me, eventhough I always break promises and act all cocky. Sometimes I wish he'll be meaner to me. He also apologises for little things even if he does nothing wrong which is a really good thing. More men should be like that.:D I think I'll just make it short and sweet and say Happy Birthday, have fun.. oh and make sure you eat lots and lots and lots of cake :)
You'll get your present.

by the way, happy birthday as well to Jia En and my sister :)

You asked for an update

I went to school today.
I am dreading the thought of going for a tournament in thailand
I bought a goldfish.
I am quite sleepy.
New Moon is coming out in 5 days.
I will not post anything further.
This is because I have nothing to say.
I can't just post like how I normally post if I'm not in the mood.
Okay?
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To be or not to be

I've found almost everything ever written about love to be true. Shakespeare said "Journeys end in lovers meeting." What an extraordinary thought. Personally, I have not experienced anything remotely close to that, but I am more than willing to believe Shakespeare had. I suppose I think about love more than anyone really should. I am constantly amazed by its sheer power to alter and define our lives. It was Shakespeare who also said "love is blind". Now that is something I know to be true. For some quite inexplicably, love fades; for others love is simply lost. But then of course love can also be found, even if just for the night. And then, there's another kind of love: the cruelest kind. The one that almost kills its victims. Its called unrequited love. Of that I am an expert. Most love stories are about people who fall in love with each other. But what about the rest of us? What about our stories, those of us who fall in love alone? We are the victims of the one sided affair. We are the cursed of the loved ones. We are the unloved ones, the walking wounded. The handicapped without the advantage of a great parking space! Yes, you are looking at one such individual.And no this was not just a crush.Because i would not have felt JUST that way.
Just the sight of him.. Heart pounding, Throat thickening, Absolutely can't swallow! All the usual symptoms.

But those days have passed, I HOPE.. I've somewhat grown up from the person I was several months ago and I am much more realistic now..

He's a vampire. and I am human.. I don't want to waste my humanity on a guy.

My Favourite

I hope that I've healed during our year apart, and that I'm sitting with you while you read this. But if I'm not, it's not because I don't love you... Because I do. And it's not because I don't miss you, because I miss you already. It'll just mean that I'm not better. And the story isn't over yet...


You're wrong. Because time will pass and she'll be fine.

told you i'd meet a man from the future

The Diary of Jane

when you're parents tell you to stay away from boys and don't go fall in love cause you're a teenager.. PLEASE LISTEN TO THEM. there's a reason why they say it.. i unfortunately did not have my parents tell me such things because, well, i'm not really the type. Quite of a good kid and doesn't really get involved in things but now i'm beginning to suspect that i may quite possibly be Bi-Polar. Sometimes, i become another person but i don't know. Won't dwell on this cause i have exams to study for. In between study breaks i managed to finish reading eclipse. I couldn't help but feel for the character of Jacob Black , as if we were going through the same things. Except that my arch enemy was not a vampire.

I am listening to Clair de Lune by Claude Debussy.

I quite like it.

Sometimes, i regret things I've done..
Lies I've told.
I discovered something. But wait, i don't think i'll say it here.. god knows who reads this blog

I watched My Sassy Girl a while ago and then as I walked across the tv area, i saw that my sister was watching it. I couldn't sit down and watch with her as i had work to do but then i remembered. The last time i watched this movie i cried my eyes out. Even my BROTHER, who for all thoughts and purposes to me, is a girl . It's a really really good movie. Walk to remember better watch out x). There are so many versions of this movie but the original one is the Korean version. The Korean ones better than the Hollywood version. It's based on a true story told in a series of love letters writen by a man named Kim Ho Sik, who initially posted them on the internet and then adapted them into a novel.
My fingers are tired, my mind is wandering
and i'm still enjoying clair de lune

Screaming Blue Murder

I have no idea what that means, but it looks cool.
I'm writing not because I have something to write about, but simply for the sake of it.Yesterday, while I was on MSN, I saw something about a thirteen-year-old blogger who was famous and being invited to all sorts of fashion shows and blah. Apparently some fashion people saw her blog, which reviews, I think, the clothes that wacky fashion designers come up with. One thing's for sure: if we ever met, we would never see eye to eye.First of all, the fact that she likes, and keeps up with, trends of the day. Call me old, stiff, close-minded, whatever you like, but I simply cannot understand modern fashion. Just like abstract art. Who in the real world actually keeps up with these things? Seriously. In my opinion, if it's not your job to critique or design or model, and you're not a celebrity, then why do you bloody care?
(I'm not criticising her, actually, since it is her job now. I think.)Then the way her blog is written. Okay, I know, I know, she's not a writer, but just reading it makes me feel frivolous and rather groupie-like. Of course, it doesn't matter, since she's a critic and not an author. Just sayin'.My dad said I should start commenting on books, but most unfortunately,i haven't read in ages. So bluek. I don't think I wanna be the next great book critic prodigy or whatever, anyway.

Golf is going pretty well.Losing to Miss.Bitch was quite a horrible experience
School is okay and I am quite excited for school to re-open.PMR in 11 days :(
After PMR there's entrance exams . Yes, damn!
but after that it's ireland so i don't exactly have that much time to laze around after exams

Won't blog for another million years or so. It's break time now, so i'm just burning some time.
54 days to new moon [20.11.09]
and i've decided no more twilight movie's with the parents. I'm going to ask someone, if he's free. Or maybe he'll ask me. hope it works out this time and i would like to say that i'm not so much of a clutz anymore. I think.

My head is throbbing, my vision is splotching, my temper is irritable and I gotta go.